I often sit in the attic on top of a small North Luo and Tan Xiaozhang listening. Is the kind of very old cassette, into an era of do not know which house to stay in the machine, and some lack of singing dull and dry.
time as simple, for me, may not find a trace of bright defects.
a piano, and a few picture card, and year-round ghost in the attic of the wood, stacked in the ray of the sun ray Di buried the deepest chamber of my heart, not from the brand down.
that started singing like a small North. In the attic, some of those old time the vast impact of his old piano. His long fingers, eyes downcast, all eyes are black and white keys on a piano fell. Planted just outside the window there is a water lily, floating in the breeze, quiet and distant.
that piano is the only valuable things to their home. They say his mother was a minor celebrity in the early years of the pianist, but in a small North 12 years old and a man went to Paris. From then on, and he no longer has any contact.
small North's father was lame, and the King had a tailor shop safety, sometimes I would go there or to repair a side zipper pants. I remember the old dead hand of his father, who was skilled in sewing machine back and forth on the swing.
little playing time in the North every time I think of his father, the old pair of dead hands, hands that I thought very little fantasy of nature so if the North's hand is also playing the more terrible, I kept thinking I was laughing.
small North said, flute Ya Do not laugh at me. When I grow up is to open the concert. Voice was firm, as if to firmly set in your heart, let you help him remember.
1997 years, a small North, his dream is to open a concert.
he said, not necessarily now, but there will always be one day.
small North asked me, Ya flute, your dream?
I leaned on a wooden bench like a long time, the taste of the night, there are gardenia, level by level down into my nose.
I said, my dream is that you listen to a concert.
I do not know it was on at the time regarded the dream, I know, even a small North to sing and run, speech leakage, the feelings are not in place, but are in no way affect him in my heart to become a super star firm.
because I know him than me, more than a pursuit of dreams and recognition.
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to be exact, the small North be my neighbor. At first we rarely intersect. I know he called the Little North, he knew my name Ya flute. Nothing more.
my first contact with the small North, in a night. Jiang Youping day I took down soy sauce. His father should come to sell the piano, north crying, holding his father's leg squat on the ground.
mother then left the small the small northern North two years, looking for his father when her mother was a car severing the leg, they began to sell things at home until the rest of this piano.
miserable day like the small north, the corridor of the honeycomb are one place off the air, homing pigeons can fly back from far out, they are around the small north side.
I was suddenly confused him so very sad. Tusihubei.
I ran upstairs, the father pulled down. I said, Dad, you help him. Good to poor.
dad came up to console the father of a small northern, north father shouted, piano is a harmful thing, what dreams are all fart.
red eyes, his father, covered with alcohol and refused to listen to anyone, pushing the piano, going out, a small North cried more loudly, and pulled back the piano. I put down the bottle of soy sauce, but also to help the small North drag the piano, a little off the yard, something rickety confused everywhere, and I and the small northern people are dragging two small piano.
do not know where to touch the huge piano suddenly fell down, seeing the piano will pressure the North to the small body, and I went over to push from the piano. However, do not move, in the father and did not react all the circumstances, a huge
piano that day my hand was severely down to the corner, hand-ground glass is a huge hole in the plan, more than the outward flow of blood. Dad sent me to the hospital quickly, north of the father and the small North's followed closely behind us. Jing An City, the hospital that night a lot of people anxious to help my dad to pay. Doctors to help me when I cried a very tough battle stitches.
I said, a small North, I will not be disabled ah?
small North took my other hand and said, no, definitely not.
I said, but, why pain seems to be dead.
I saw the eyes of a small North seems to have a lot of light, he said, I'm sorry, all my fault.
all around is chaos, the hospital never had that kind of noisy. Small eyes twinkling northern lights, pass all my pain stopped as if in a flash.
I stopped crying mouth, out the other go and wipe the tears of small North, I said, a small North, the boys are very precious tears can not be easily wasted.
small North stopped crying, nodded at me desperately.
sew my five-pin, from the palm of his left little finger has spread to at the end, it is very ugly like a centipede crawling on it. As if to follow my whole life.
gauze removed the day, I did not go to school, I sat home and cut a small window next to a pot of cactus, those plush were numerous small spines on my palm. I suddenly do not know how to spread the ugly face of my hand.
little night north out of me from home, went to a nearby open-air stage.
him on the stage to sing Muji's He and a mouth, revealing he looks a bit crooked teeth. He sang the first sentence: the emotions of your hands ... ... I could not help but to laugh.
I say you do not so disgusting, and we not know, oh.
a helpless expression on his exposed jumped down from the stands, he said, you okay ah a serious point? I have this future star's first concert will be open for you, how can you not respect me?
I nodded, uh ... ... you continue.
He shook his head, do not sing. This first concert will end here, Now I formally introduce myself, my name is Gu Yan North, 14 years old. Nice to meet you.
I said, I called Han Ya Di, 14 years old. Also very pleased to meet you.
our hands like to hold national leaders to meet together. Summer nights with fireflies flying and landed on his head and landed on our hands, my hands are scars that terrible road to stay with his hand. Half a minute later, I took out his hand. Head down to the back.
I gently put my left hand up, containing all my sweet sorrow, it is like a little bit of warmth, inch by inch implanted in your heart. Let your life, hope was beginning to multiply.
1997 年 only sang one sentence that a concert is to load my entire life, of hope, the calm that day, but cool the air molecules is not many years after I had forgotten the sweet.
I remember you. Because you are my pain since 1997, to commemorate the palm.
-------------------------------------------- three days of that year, a small North wanted to test only a King An arts school, that school is only open for two years though, but the accumulation of the best panoramic An art teacher, and that school safety is the richest man Duanmu Group boss King sponsorship, there is a huge financial backing, will have the opportunity to send study abroad, so many people want to go to school, such as the River.
but that schools only accept two hundred each year there are outstanding artistic talent and cultural achievements of students. The King On a million people in this city, it is not a small competition.
small North are confident that his mother taught him piano for so many years, reached a pinnacle of his piano to the point, he wanted to be a good vocal music training institutions.
the North to test a small arts school, not his father said, so he did not a little money. I took out my pocket money she saved usually taken out to buy a lot to help the small North Vocal book, and I sat in the attic with him we have to lie to his father, a good study.
that hot in the summer, north house fans are bad, he forgot to get his father had bought a new fan. I am holding a feather fan to fan to a small North, while fan side lookout for him, if you see his dad come up from downstairs to the first time informed him that he had hidden the vocal book.
I always look with special standards, has never been discovered by his father, and I think we both can shoot the rate of change in the TV series.
in a small North going to the day before the interview, I bought him a new uniform. It was smashed I saved up my piggy bank for many years before buying, that there is money left my last.
white dress shirt, printed some of the gray tree pattern.
small North pleased hugged me, Ya flute, you are kind to me. You're my good friends.
I heard these words, a bit sentimental, but I said to myself, you have a lot of time, do not be afraid.
the most out of our expectation is that suddenly the day of the interview, north of the father, as long known as the small North off at home, he shut the door, and refused to leave the guarding a small North, he said, , which you do not take up today, I have helped you to leave the school. No matter how small North
shouting how called, are not used, his father is not open.
small arts school in the North missed the interview, the final exam with me or the security of the Xin Jing Chuan School.
in the examination of small northern summer after the mood has been very bad, he play the whole summer in a song called inside. I do not know how to comfort him, and I cook every day to give him sugar and red bean cakes cajole him to do, he is like my other half, he was pleased, I will follow the fun.
one month after the small North finally figured out that he wear that I bought him new clothes and carrying my bike to take a stroll every corner of the city of Jing An. Every time he would stop at the door of the store a long time, listening to the store to play those songs, those songs sometimes mildly, sometimes mischievously, as if the clouds should cut down section by section on the contemplation and mourning to us before they agree to give up.
every time I have a few cents a bottle to drink soft drinks squatted street. A leaf fell on my head, I do not pick, I know the small north will help me remove the leaves, but also squatted on the roadside with me.
I think that was my most simple and small North and joy of the time, without any complicated things, a bottle of soda, a straw, and carries the dream of a childhood friend, sunset comes, can walk home together. Want to ride, they can sit on a bike ride after the Yang to the sky high above his head.
I have family in the small north attic painted a sketch, painting is my bike after sitting in a small North sit handle open, embracing the natural look, north to the painting to find someone on the color, signed his name, mounted the box. Solemnly hanging in the room where the most prominent.
me jumping in my mouth next to sugar, those restless little sugar tablets in my mouth, teeth, gums before the rattle of a fight. Accor North said
small flute, so I was 20 years old, since you can take this pair of paintings, I think when I almost famous, and you can get the painting a lot of money.
I began to bottled water to the mouth, while smiling into the delivery side of a line to the eye. I saw the painting's lower right, a sum of a painting reads: Gu Yan North. August 18, 1997. Period 1997-2007.
looked at the date, I smiled slightly. Little North smiled. I touched that date, as if touched with a long-term purpose of the plan.
his plan to his own music.
and I, yet their own, plan to this decade.
decades, seemed a distant and elusive time. However, what is it. Since the North can be a small time to ten years carries a musical dream, why can not I use the years of time to wait for a future with him.
Hou then I believe I can, as he believed he would become famous the same. I firmly believe that he gave, and his conviction was his to give. Our dreams so real that is not present in the 1997 season in the hot and windy.
This is living a self-pleasure. If they gave themselves hope and encouragement do not, then, who would have to bear in mind that your dreams and future well-preserved it. That year, I often make a dream, opened his first concert, he will declare to me, he would, and I said, Ya flute, I like you.
too good for this dream that I woke up to the mouth are rising, I think dreams always come true, otherwise how can you be so real memory in my mind yet.
encountered Suwan until January, I remembered an old and common saying, dream and reality is always the opposite.
so broke, unforgettable.
Suwan months. First became apparent. She has a half-length hair and casual around my shoulders, eyes small, very bright, white dress, the head is often decorated with a daisy hairpin.
she has not come to view safety in high school, in King City is a safe and teenagers no small celebrity. Two days has been the piano ten, to participate in the various provincial games are top of the spear, still had the party on the City radio show. And, her mother is the most famous panoramic Ann City vocal teacher.
most people is that she did not go talk to I found a small North
like her New Year's Day party at school, she sang An old Cantonese songs, but she sing, they should not have doubled style.
small North election day is to sing the song goes. I stood in the audience
heard around him laugh, and the small north face of the distress, accompanied with the voice over for a long time, north or the music is not the point. Finally coming to an end of the concert, I saw a small North hurried off the stage, I walked back through the crowd, and I want to give his first comforting encouragement.
but I have not come back, I saw in the distance and the small North Suwan stand on. Suwan
I heard the voice of months, she said, in fact, quite good your voice is too nervous, but also the lack of vocal training.
small North seems to not open the mouth as hard nod, it looks silly Leng Leng, I looked at heart Biede panic.
Suwan said month, you call Gu Yan North Oh?
small North said, Yes.
If you really want to sing good songs, you can come to learn my mother.
small North and nodded, saying, good.
background littered with colorful props, like my heart suddenly scattered, small eyes on the North to see Suwan is so fine, fine to the skin on her face can not miss any trace of the lines, so look how much I know, how I know the meaning behind the eyes.
he stood carefully as this for me, how big a blow.
I turned and went out, my long walk in the night, I went to a small North take me to the outdoor stage, some people on stage to sing two pass, the audience eating seeds face laughter. Such a festive piece I is not laughing, I sat in the corner of the last row, shrunk himself a little, I was afraid of losing this, I was afraid that somehow lost.
outdoor stage performances in ten scattered field, the people gradually dispersed around the entire site only empty loneliness and the air, someone tapped my shoulder, I looked up and saw an immediate bright smile, a look of worried about boys asked me, how do you?
I shook my head and continue to hold his knees sitting on the bench, a few boys in school uniform shouting in the distance, wood Greece, come quickly rehearsal.
'll be here. Hope the boys who called on the group of wood boys shouted, and then squat beside me asked, do you really all right? Or not to go home so late?
I said, you go to rehearse it, leave me.
he suddenly took off his jacket to the body, draped over my shoulder, he said, you obediently sit here, ah, I give you a good rehearsal home.
I think the people amazed, and I'm sad I'm sad he was concerned about what ah. But that day I am feeling very well, no time for his temper, and I nodded muffled to continue sitting.
their rehearsal actually is Yi An I hope
look of wood, holding his guitar looks really temperament, even to mention several other boys, flying up and self-confidence, as if what the world can easily get to.
I am sorry not to take a little north, if the small North admitted to
weak lighting, music, the rhythm was very good step, in the dim light in revealing some of the music, I could not ignore their performances.
them over and over, I am conscious clapped her hands, holding the guitar, wooden hope smiled jumped from the stage. He said the girl lost lamb, where does your home?
the smile I can not help laughing, I do not call sheep friends.
that your name? Allow us to take the initiative to ask the grass a school name. Another boy asked.
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I got up, Rao open topic, listen to you sing such a professional, Studies on the mother with the Suwan singing it? Do not know how, I just suddenly remembered the words in the background Suwan month.
front four boys suddenly all Lengle Leng, and then hope a wood saw a boy said, Hey, we are learning that the teacher in the forest.
a bit of wood the natural expression of hope, he asked, you know Suwan month, you are Xin Chuan high school?
I nodded, and she is a celebrity ah, who does not know her, I just wonder why she did not come into your security we Xin Yi Chuan, her voice so well.
eyes looked at each of the four boys, all eyes remain in the end, we hope the body wood.
wood Greece cried, you looked at what I do, ah, oh my business.
upsets some of them I was confused, the boys engage in the arts is always very strange. I handed off the coat of wood hope, I say, thank you for your coat, I'm going home.
wood hope that I sent you.
I shook my head, turn around, Rao open rows of wooden bench to move forward. Mu Xi followed me. A few steps, I saw a small North from a distance walking towards me, I do not know how, then turned around to go and stand next to wooden Greece.
I said, wood hope, to accompany me to play a show.
small North ran to me and was sweating profusely. He said, Ya Di, why did you not say soon ran away, causing me to find you looking for a long time.
I smiled and said, yes, I see hope rehearsals wood. His
a small north face collapse, your flute in this heartless Ya Han, Jing An's full of loss I find you everywhere, you actually still sprinkle salt on my wound.
I said, forget it you, I'll row you half a month's song, you even see a beautiful woman to sing the wrong lyrics.
small North stunned, I pulled up the hand of hope harrying small wooden walk north. The very large open-air stage, I looked up the sky of stars, I think I and the small stars on the north attic, I suddenly very sad, I can not stop a small North to like someone, but I do not even stop their favorite little North can not do. I do not like it myself.
wood I hope the alley until you come to my home port, wood Greece asked me, is that your boyfriend ah?
I stared, not you, is my neighbor.
wood Greece laugh,UGG boots clearance, I just listen to words, how do you acid. Big wave vinegar.
I cast of his hand, walked into my alley. I said, the play is over, thank you, goodbye.
day, I am not happy at home then I drank two bowls of syrup or puzzled air, I shot my room to play darts, I think that Red is Suwan month, I want to beat her , severely beat her, but I think she goes face gentle enough I find myself hopeless.
I do not play, not sing, but can not dance. Orsay question I can easily finish a breath the whole solution, but see the sheet music to a headache. Then the first time I hate that they can not sing and dance.
Yes, I hate all the people sing and dance. I hate Suwan
months. Because she is only in the moment, the boys took me ten years plan was to capture the breeze. In full view, in my eyes. His words captured the care of the North.
this for a long time, so strong and confident Han Ya flute, is how deep a blow.
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did not take long, north to the mother plans to go to that school Suwan vocal months. He was 16 years old, and for vocal learning, it is a calculation with the large age, but he made up his mind so suddenly, as if of any persuasion are useless.
He told me he was the plan, I sat in the school in practice the long jump sandpit, on the previous one minute from the school I saw a corner of the window and he stood on Suwan merry chat in the corridor. I think my heart at that moment are green gas.
struggling toward the front of my jump, jump too hard, sitting on the sand.
small North still on the side to ask, how ah, do you think ah?
I sat on the sand turned to yell at him, I think of it fucking matter, ah, I'm not your mother, your father does not kill you as long as you stick to it.
do not know how to do, I become very bad temper, for no reason will be angry at him.
small North and came and sat on the sand, the sound becomes very light, he said, Ya flute your temper so bad, dumped easily Duanmu hope your oh.
I later learned that the original name is Duanmu wood Xi Xi. Ann King is the richest man young master home, he likes to call him all hope of wood, so you can forget Ann King is the richest man of his house it.
is a small North misunderstood our relationship.
I said, whoever you are nosy.
he wanted me and Duanmu hope so with a little sense of loss are not, I hate him so calm, do not care what I look hurt.
I picked up the bag was gone, I'm afraid I'll like and the small North together, one day I will be my own big dB Jinong mad.
not far out of the door, I saw the hope of wood stood outside the school on his bicycle under the tree, sun tan on his body with a layer of golden yellow, white skin, like the air like a porcelain translucent.
him and our little princess Suwan talking months, I pretend not to know him TIPS, head down through.
hope that the joy of wood and then heard the voice behind him to death shouting, lamb, I'm here.
my head suddenly remembered cartoons often see an exclamation point.
who told the lamb ah, I heard Suwan month asked.
I continue to go my way, as not to hear.
wood Greece pushed his bike in front of me, lamb, how do you ignore me? Oh, I know you told Han Ya flute, but I like to call your lamb. He said to himself for a long time. I do not know the art of grass is such secondary school noisy. I do not want to split
his face, I tugged mouth, uh, whatever you want it.
wood hope that you soon on the train it, take you to our new rehearsal space.
on the train? I looked at his bike not mountain bike ride after the car.
wood Xi said, sitting in front of you, what is the relationship that we have trouble opening a long time affair, OK?
silent like I suddenly fainted, I saw on the face Suwan hope to finish the sentence in the wood after the pale one, if we have an ambulance, she will be away.
However, I still get wood before the mountain bike ride, and hope he went to his new rehearsal space, because I saw Suwan ugly face on there is a sudden thrill of revenge.
hope the mountain bike sitting on the wood, wood Greece bowed his head in my ear saying, Han Ya flute, you're that bad boy.
I put his head down back, away from me, I never said I am a good boy.
Each time you use me. Wood is the voice of hope resentment.
I did not answer.
he went on, however, I am willing to be used by you. Have a sprinkler from us through, loud music sprinkler, covering almost these words, I doubt this is my illusion.
Duanmu hope their new rehearsal space is an empty basement, surrounded by a lot of iron, a lot of rock above the printed pattern.
Duanmu hope is to learn the real beauty in fact sound, and their teachers to play secretly carrying a heavy metal and rock, at that time was very brave and thoughtful thing.
I can be sitting in a stool watching their rehearsals, sound is very noisy very harsh, I still sat on it not moving, I will exercise my music cell and passion for music, so I have to learn from Duanmu from Greece here. There was a basement in the air musty smell, taste and I like the house in a small attic on the north to the point not the same smell.
wood Greece during the break a bottle of water handed to me, I took it, he saw the scar on my hands.
he asked,bailey UGG boots, how to get it?
I said, probably when I get Americans to save the right guy.
he has been hanging in his face vanished smile, he asked, in pain?
he grabbed my hand, I am a bit afraid of the hand drawn back, hurt, and has long hurt the.
wood hope that you always do and pretend that strong, in fact, than anyone else you are vulnerable.
see through wood I hope it makes me very depressed. Go home at night, in the downstairs heard the voice of the small upstairs north father coming out, not allowed, I will not let you learn vocal music. I know the small north and his father told him something to learn vocal music.
I was running well on its way to the small north door, I saw a small North wearing the shirt I gave him standing in front of the piano and said, you hit it, I have to learn vocal music, you do not give me the money I would go out to work.
his father, his lips trembling with anger, his hand is heavy heavy hit, this time, a small North did not cry, he was very firm stand on the piano, a move that he no longer 14 year-old piano to be sold because that will only cry a little north. He was a little more firm and strong.
their home light bulb suddenly dark, and I cried in front of the house, north.
quiet night, quietly, a small North turned to see me one night so dark, I can see his smile a bit, that laugh is easy, he said, elegant flute, you see, I do not cry Well, I think, is the shirt you gave me strength.
do not know why, I suddenly cried, I cried crouched at his door, I said, uncle let you learn to sing the small north ... ...
I'm crying out loud I can not see the small north that way, obviously sad heart to death, but still pretend to be strong, so I cry loudly, as if to turn his grievance was crying out.
I do not know how long I cried, cried to the lights, my father came to the small North helped me up, he said, elegant flute, you can not so used to the small North, art this way, really too hard.
fact, I do not know then why the hard way, is the insistence of a small North touched me, I would like to have his blood flow with the desire of the factors of art, it is his insistence, I must support him.
there is no way, can only agree to his dad. Small North'm glad we sat in the attic, he said, elegant flute, then I will be able to learn vocal music that Wan had dated her mother, I can often see Wan month,UGG shoes, and you for me happy?
I said, happy, very happy. Voice can not get out, I turned to look at the picture on the wall of his house, where written in 1997 -2007 years. I do not know if I can support such a long time, I just feel I'm so tired, I can not find a place and stick to it relying on the power.
If
not Duanmu hope, I will be hurt Gu Yan North can not be recovered. Yan Gu
North began formal vocal training, her house in Suwan month, three times a week classes. He started later than others, opportunities do not come easily, so better than anyone else hard work and effort, up 5 points daily practice sound, see a lot of vocal music books, have the opportunity to participate in school activities and the city game .
he gradually became the backbone of art school,Discount UGG boots, he did the chorus singing, the art school the first male member of the month he and Suwan opportunity to contact more and more playing and singing their double Gangqin The evening show is almost as important the school head.
he is getting better, but also farther away from me, he occasionally came to me and I tell him all the dilemma, he Zuifan is Suwan month do not like him.
I see Suwan early January did not like him is because she does not see his eyes trace the warm and nostalgic. I think this is where I still have hope, how much a rare hope.
This is the worst thing the only good thing.
little bit long-winded and I always get the North forever, he said Suwan always tell when the month could not finish, he said, no matter what I do always laugh Wan month, or a nod , and each time she saw Duanmu hope to have much to tell him if his performance every time she would see, he she must participate in every game, but why would she want to come to us Xin Yi Chuan Ann do not go? Is it just to make me depressed and I meet it? I drink a cup of chrysanthemum
water, looked at him, I said, what can not figure out it, I met you, so depressed, and I was not too well received.
small North said, you do not like, ah, you are a happy family, there is a rich young master boyfriend, and a best friend than iron is also strong with you, you say how your life so perfect?
chrysanthemum water I drink the whole cup, I said, ah, my life is so perfect, however, why I still want to meet you.
day I hope to Duanmu chat about it sitting in a small lake, I am silent, he took a large box of I finally laughed.
He looked at me very seriously, said Lamb, I love you.
phrase I like you, it is too sudden, I dreamed about this scene, but the actor has changed people. I suddenly could not respond.
I call a good chocolate into his mouth and ambiguous to say, this very delicious chocolate, where to buy ah?
wood hope to open topic in my spare time to prepare a sudden kiss over, slowly melt the chocolate in the mouth, the world is chocolate.
I got up, you crazy Oh, I will call the police arrest you ... ... I do not know what I said to myself, I was suddenly confused, I saw hope in the eyes of wood in a flash of light but also than the surrounding to dark.
he asked softly, lamb, if I go, would you miss me?
my fit of anger, I said, No, no, definitely not.
He came up to me and help me clothing straightened crooked collar, and finally he said, I'm sorry, I'm just like you. After you take good care of yourself.
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